simple plan

2010-08-30T22:05:00.002+08:00

as everyday goes by

i feel that i am no more of need to you

everyday

i feel like your floating away

just like what i did to someone

is this karma?

maybe you have you friends

and you dont need me anymore

i dk

but thats how i feel

you dont even find me in school anymore

and i dont do the same thing

i can see that you have more fun with your new friends

no need your old ones that much

well

even if i try and asked you

you seem like you dont give a damn

dosent mean that i say i dont want to go

really means i dont want to

i miss my old friends

and i mean EVERYONE

except maybe one who i hate that much

2010-08-15T00:43:00.002+08:00

hais

ite!

hate the friends there sometime's

say hi on msn,kena curse

and then kena called dog

this is what i get for helping you sometime's

wow thanks

i think i can never call any of my ite friends

my best friends

cause they dont deserve to be.

and

i just wanna go back to the past and stay there

so nothing will happend

like what has already happend.

i wanna just say

if im a dog what are you

worst then a dog i guess.

worst then a dog because you call me dog

2010-07-27T19:23:00.002+08:00

if someone you cared so much says goodbye to you

you dont say he/she said it first

if you really cared about that someone

you would not give up

its not easy for both

it's hard for the person who says goodbye

and it hard for the other to accept it and move on

2010-07-26T23:12:00.002+08:00

i haven't blogged for month's

yes

sorry but i guess after this post im just gonna mia for months again

im not thinking straight

maybe im depressed

so much thing has changed in my life

i feel angry most of the time

not happy just faking myself.

maybe doing what i did wasn't the solution

can't get everything of my mind.

keeps coming back

2010-02-12T22:09:00.003+08:00

hey!

went out today!

went bugis with my friends

but before that i went to school to finish up my punishment

but i can seriously tell you

punishment like not punishment at all

instead we learnt stuff

well for me and my other 4 friends who have punishment with me learnt how to bake

cool!!

lols i got punished cause i left my wallet in the canteen

then my sir took it! HMP!

yea,the other's was just late for lesson

so we had to follow SIR to holland village buy the cake stuff

then we stayed back till 4+ to bake the cake yesterday

today we finished the cake

anyways yea the 2 cakes we made

simple one's

edible and nice

ouh and dont forget my picture at the top

that's my new shirt

i like it

thoose question's

simillar to situation i am in

well not gonna think about it and ruin my post

but yea it's a great shirt

i edited it

deleted some none important question's

cut halfway then took picture.-_-

2010-02-09T00:35:00.002+08:00

it's not easy.

but it's my choice

really

just forget me

you dont need me

you've got other better friends then me

people who care for you

not saying i dont

but just say that i dont care as much as thoose people

yea you deserve better

so that's why im asking you to just forget you had a best friend like me

cause i dont think i can give you all the simple things you asked me to give you

i dont even know the real reason why you are angry with me

you asked me not to keep secrets from you

but are keeping a secret from me??

really im so sorry for the time's i wasn't there

and

im sorry

for the time's that i wont be there at all

like i told you dont be sad

what i need now is to move on from the mistake that iv'e mad twice in my life

i such a failure

and if i can move on once

i'll be able to do the same this time

just that it would be harder this time

on the other hand

i got a warning letter from my sir

my whole group got it

18 of us

lasy week was STUPID

and after the warning letter

we started new this week

and we did great today

i was proud of us.MY GROUP!

seriously no more warning letter.pls

to my friend

im just gonna go now

maybe when you really need me

you tell me

im just sick of thinking about our friendship everyday

2010-02-01T19:39:00.002+08:00

bad day today

good day another day

no matter how good or how bad my days are

i'll still be sad and lost

it's just so different now

your not here

im not there also

where are we?

seriously i dont know

but it's my choice

im trying to move on

i know im being sellfish

but hey

i know what you know

made someone angry because of that

now i just dont seem to be able to care anymore

im really saying i dont care anymore in my mind

well you'll survive without me i guess

i have no idea how to talk to you anymore

even if i do

i dont know what to talk about

so im saying

so long

till next time

2010-01-29T19:54:00.002+08:00

hey people

yesterday had no school.

went out with my classmates from my group

was out from morning till 11

we did lots of stuff

even stuff that i thought i would never do

today

had school

after that was a pest talk

and then

the whole class

we went to marina square play pool for our care session

i suck in pool now days.

i wonder why

anyways you may see that my life is fun now

but i dont think i like it that much

something is missing

sad sad

life still suxs

always does

2010-01-18T19:28:00.003+08:00

Hey im back from camp!

actually i was already back on friday night.

so anyways i was so tired and busy that i did not go online

and yea this is my class

2day onenight camp

person in green is my sir(my teacher)

classmates.

my ogl in black(in charge of my class la)

and also my senior

morning exercise all tired.

ok done with camp

saturday and sunday was busy cause of work

i learnt something

something that i wont ever do in my life ever again.

sad to know about it la.

why do people have such big mouth

BAKAR YOU KNOW!

i hate it

seriously hate it

like fuck!

2010-01-12T20:45:00.002+08:00

hello!!

im so confuse!!

DRAGON BOAT

ARCHERY

as my cca.

dragon boat is

3 times a week and is at dover

archery is once a week

help me!!

2010-01-06T00:42:00.003+08:00

hey!

today second day of school

not bad la today

went to school

was late a little

went to class and sir said that class end at 2

was sooo happy!

so we did our stuff and ended earlier.

at about 11+?

so the whole class went to buy our pe shirt

the service damn lousy.-_-"

anyways

went mac with jy and her friends

erm after that went home

i called elfi halway and he said he was gonna skate

so i met him at ion

we skated

went to lau pa sat

went to esplanade

went to wendy's

went sentosa

from the bus station at harbour front i went my way

elfi took bus home

i went to chinatown

skate all the way to ion

at clark quay i met my burgerking friend

say hi and went off

sakte skate

till almost reach ochard central

went down a hill

board was shaking

fell right flat on the road

hehe

lucky there wasnt any car

and also no cuts

only pain

so i went burgerking oc to slack and get rid of the pain

then i ciao go ion burgerking

lols i have nothing better to do

my manager,kelvin a.k.a darling was going home already

so i followed him to cene

walk walk

then go oc burgerking with him

then i went off.

took 171 home

tapped my card and was asked to use cash

had no cash!!

im broke

yah so i told the uncle and he said nvm

THAnkS to the UNCLE!!

he rock!

then got off bus and skate home

today was fun even though i could have almost died.

2010-01-03T21:32:00.003+08:00

hey!

yesterday i went out with my primary school friend.

only 4 of us la

anyways i had work

suppose to bring my stuff for sec 1 camp to work and meet shaun pek

but i forgot

so after work i took cab home

then i met him at yishun and then i met my primary school friends

it was akward at first

because we haven't seen each other for freakin long

it was a really really random outing

i still had fun

i hope they had fun too

anyways

we went to play pool

then slack at plaza sing

then we went esplanade

went off at 12

me and my friend share cab since he lived near me

yea!

should do it again!

2009-12-31T22:59:00.004+08:00

helloooo!

it's 11.04

2010 is in 56 min

bye bye 2009.

im gonna welcome 2010 with big my arms wide open!

hope that it is better then the year 2009.

school gonna start

WHY,WHY MUST ITE START SO EARLY!!!

anyways

today work was fun

i mean after work

i work from 10 till 6

so i clocked out at 6

did not want to go home

so i slacked in manager room

then one of my manager(suhaimi)

said

wait for me la

after that i send you home

so i wait for him till 9

around 8.30

he came to me and asked me to follow him

we went to kallang burger king

took motor

went there just to take milk.

and then we came back

the milk wasnt enough

so i was asked to go somerset burger king

and take MILK

so i went and took afew packs of milk back

after that my manager(suhaimi)

sent me home

so honoured

ahahaha XD !

byebye !

SENIOR TEAM LEADER(azuan)

i know you will be a great teacher!

jia you!!

2009-12-26T22:23:00.002+08:00

gosh im freakin tired!!

never blog for so long.

no time man!

ive been working and working

wednesday

i worked for 11 hrs

next day worked morning shift

friday

morning again.

btw ive watched avatar

its freakin awesome!!

especially in 3D.

alot of thing's is gonna come

i have no time

ive got to go for my ite course interview on monday

wish me luck!

bought a longboard

only for $218

BUT NOW!!!

im broke

i still need to find stuff for sec 1 camp.

i bought most of the stuff

but i still have afew

my life look alittle bit more interesting now

but i still feel sad though

well i still want you

but i guess that im loosing to someone else

someone that i hate

well it's ok if i loose

i'll just have to move on

i guess thats what i'll do

to the person that i hate

i give up

picturessss!

2009-12-14T23:53:00.002+08:00

me taking a shot with my blackbird!!!!

im lazy to write stuff so yea just enjoy the pictures

2009-12-14T00:32:00.002+08:00

hey.

like my camera?

blackbird fly!!!

i love it

just finished my first film and already sent it for precessing

can't wait to see the outcome of my pictures

hope it is nice

anyways

i couldn't use my camera at night cause there is no flash

but i just bought a flash for it

yesterday i had no work

but

i had training

from 9 till 6

called faris and last minute force him to go out with me

lol

so we went out

had fun

today

also no work

so i went out with juit ying

called elfi

and he said he was alone

so we asked him along

went to marina

well that about it

im kinda lazy to continue

2009-12-05T00:30:00.002+08:00

it feels so different now

i can say that im in my own world

a world where nobody is there

like im all by myself

no one else is in my world

i feel better in my own world though it feels lonely

but what can i say

even the closest person to me dosen't feel like the closest one anymore

busy being with other people

while im busy being in my own world and feeling lonely

sad life

very sad

2009-11-29T00:40:00.002+08:00

do you think that i am also a lousy friend?

cause i have a feeling that i am now

i dont msg

i sort of always go missing

i dun listen to you when you talk to me

i guess there is another better friend

hais

im always emo

im always hating my life

im just one boring person

too boring to even talk to

thats all i am

im sad that im like this

maybe someone could give me solutions

im scared that i am also the person that doesn't care

2009-11-28T01:25:00.003+08:00

manhunt for bianca made me very tired.

lols!!.

you might be thinking what i mean

well im too tired to explain

just wanna say that i bought a bag

i call it a shirt bag

cause basically it look like a shirt

smart shirt

and the best thing is that faris also bought the same bag as me

just diff colour

im still very emotional

some people know why

some dont

ive been going to clarke quay riverside

when im free and have no where to go

and no one to go out with

i'll just go there and sit for hours

especially at night

it is nice to be alone sometimes

well ive always been a loner

who is there?

i dont know

who cares?

ok i shall stop

getting even more emotional.

byebye

going to sleep

very tired!

2009-11-24T23:45:00.002+08:00

hello.

im emotional again

im addicted to this Chinese song which is emotional

and it makes me emotional.

hais

and worst is that i keep listening to it

anyways today i finished work at 5.

went to pei donna home cause she waited for me for 30 min.

and then i did not want to go home

AS USUAL

so,i spent 2hr 30 min at clarke quay.

sat by the river and just enjoy being alone.

it's ok

im used to being alone by myself

yea i was sitting

i saw lights in the sky

and they were moving.

so i went to check it out

i found out that they were kite's

remote control kites/with lights

so cool

i'll get one of it one day

its so expensive

im off to be emotional again.

see ya.

2009-11-21T21:19:00.005+08:00

HEY WORLD!

i just came back from council camp+farewell dinner for the sec 4's.

which means including me!

anyways yea took a pic with mr chong

picture of the day for me.

anyways it was a 1 night camp.

stayed over

slept at the bbcourt and was disturbed by the ncc.

today we, sec 4's was asked to join the council/monitors and the ncc for a programme.

not bad ah

it was a marshall arts called chanbara

it is like fencing

but it's from japan

after training,we had to take turns in a group of 10.

council/monitor vs ncc

so each time the council/monitor have 4 boys and 6 girls the ncc have 10 boys

but ncc got pwned.XD

okays

after camp

me,chingmay,jacob,ren jun and shaun pek

we went to amk to eat long john

and at the same time shaun fixed his psp which had modifcation problems.

and

went back home after that.

now im damn tired!

OKAY

sayonara

enjoy looking at the pictures

2009-11-17T00:17:00.002+08:00

harlo my friends from earth!!

im so happy today

after days of sadness

but abit waste time today

work was great today

i opened a counter today

so happy,ahaha

had a few void tickets when i started but after that i got used to it.

my first order was BIG.

7 double mushroom swiss

AND

6 double turkey bacon

there was a group of jc student's who knew me

i have no idea who they were

they came to me and asked me how is dolly ong?

and after i took their orders i asked they

how you know i am from zhonghua?

they said that i looked familiar

cause i councillor

cool man!

anyways

i finished work at 4 today

i had nothing to do

did not want to go home

and i remembered that i had a council meeting for sec 1 camp

so i went all the way back school at serangoon

just to find out that it has ended

lol thanks to shaun pek!.XD

so i went to plaze sing and i ate ljs.

then i walked back to ion to wait for jun hui.

after that waited for elfi and donna.

which in the end i pangseh donna.

hehe

i was too excited to meet faris

cause he was at orchard

so i met him and bianca and his friends.

which was my schoomates.

thats about it.

i'll blog again when i have things to say

2009-11-10T10:42:00.002+08:00

elo!

it's been days since i blogged.

just busy working thats all

dont get it wrong.

im not dead yet.

anyways

for your information

i have learnt how to do cashier

but i haven't done any cashier stuff yet.

and

yesterday the whole ion burger king crew had an off day

we had an outing

to east coast park,for a bbq.

it was fun.

well,thats all i have to say

bye for now

2009-10-28T21:40:00.003+08:00

i've said this not once or twice

but i've said this lots of times

and im gonna stress on it and say it again

I HATE LIFE.

I am NOT happy.

i Hate my fmy.

how i wish time would pass damn freakin fast

so i be free

im always forced to do things,forced to go this and that.

i go there unwillingly i wont freakin learn anything.

no fucking point.

i know that by saying this next thing makes me selfish.

but how i wish i wasn't here.

i wish i never had been given life.

to some people it makes a dif,thats why i say i am selfish.

but i hate my life that much

i breakingdown as i say this

i can't tahan it.

im in my room,in the dark and tearing.

sorry for being selfish but thats what i wish,that i wasn't born

2009-10-16T19:57:00.002+08:00

i am graduated

should i be happy or sad??

i should be both

happy that i got through 4 years in zhonghua

but also sad that we have to go different ways

anyways today was grad day

SO FAR

it's the best grad day i have seen

the previous grad day that i went to was nothing compared to ours.

and yea thanks chingmay for your card.

nice drawing,

love it.

thank you ouh and i wont throw you all away.

i will kepp you all.

again thanks chingmay.

BIANCA!!!

i am so sorry

i left the thing that you gave me in my blazer and it is somewhere in the blazer cubboard.

i feel so sad

i did not even get to read what you wrote on it

haiss.

i'll try to get it back

i am waiting for photo's so that i can upload them.

sigh

till next time

MY FRIENDS.='(.

wont be the same anymore.

thanks for being there when i need you all.

2009-10-15T20:11:00.002+08:00

hey hey.

yesterday i had work .

work wasnt as tiring yesterday then monday and tuesday.

this picture was taken by juit ying

anyways after work went to far east and then istana park

and we took lots of picture

but i only want to post the best of the best photo.

anyways today i am off.

so is tmr.

and i spent almost the whole day sleeping cause i am so tired

ok i am off

i think i will be working on saturday and sunday.

my boss havent msg me.

2009-10-11T21:40:00.001+08:00

gosh
i realise that i go out like 4 days in a row
even on sunday which i usually dont go out
AND GOSH
the blogger post sucks
anyways just wanna say wish me luck for my training tmr XD
so excited
and i am happy!!
cause,i bought myself a new wallet and a watch which is cool to me.
and ouh ya thanks shaun for my shirt.
anyways before going for work tmr i am gonna be going to the bank to open up an acc for my work,so i will be having a atm card.=)

yea thanks about it.wish me luck!

2009-10-11T09:09:00.001+08:00

helooooo!

yesterday i went to ion.
apparently donna and elfi had their job training yesterday
so i was there at 2
i went to burger king to fill up an application form
then i went out and came back for lunch
the guy who i asked for part time came to me
he told me that the boss want to speak to me.

so we talk and talk and the boss asked me to come on monday 2-6 for a job training.
i am so happy yesterday
i finally got a job!!.

and i am even more happy cause i bought a wallet
oh and donna and elfi was kind of funny
went to disturb them
like one whole group of us disturb them ah

yea thats all i am gonna say.
wanna visit me?? monday?? 2-6.XD cyou

2009-10-09T01:43:00.002+08:00

hey!

i havent blog in days because the blog posting has gone nuts again.

anyway i'll just post today
i am happy that n level is finally over.
i am sad because it wont be the same anymore.
we all will go different ways.
miss sec school life already.

today went out.
went to find job at dunkin donut.
me,donna,elfi,jun hui,beaver and sy.
actually,only me,elfi and wei xiong wanted to try.
but the rest joined in except sy.
after that donna and elfi had a call from them
so,elfi and donna is goin for a try outs tmr.
hope they can get it.
for me,im alright not getting it.
there is always other place to work.

glad that i am ok with sy.
i dont know i just dont wanna fight anymore and also because she tried to want to talk to me.
and i will talk to people who wants to talk to me.

yea! tmr gonna try visit them and DISTURB them.
i bet its gonna be fun.
but im gonna go bugis with wei xiong first.
but i guess they might be other people coming.

took my ipod to the doctor today and is in icu.lols.
they need to check to see weather there is something wrong with it or not.
if there is,they might replace it.hoho.
cant live without my ipod

new song in my blog ipod touch
lyrics below.
hope you enjoy the song as much as i do.

Is That Seat Taken
Congratulations
Would You Like To Take A Walk With Me

My Mind It Kind Of Goes Fast
I Try To Slow It Down For You
I Think I'd Love To Take A Drive
I Want To Give You Something
I've Been Wanting To Give To You For Years
My Heart

My Heart, My Pain Won't Cover Up
You Left Me.. Hu Hu Hu Hu
My Heart Won't Take This Cover Up
You Left Me.. Hu Hu Hu Hu

I Came To See The Light In My Best Friend
You Seemed As Happy As You'd Ever Been
My Chance Of Being Open Was Broken
And Now You're Mrs. Him.

My Words They Don't Come Out Right
But I'll Try To Say I'm Happy For You
I Think I'm Going To Take That Drive
I Want To Give You Something
I've Been Wanting To Give To You For Years
My Hearts

My Heart, My Pain Won't Cover Up
You Left Me.. Hu Hu Hu Hu
My Heart
My Heart Won't Take This Cover Up
You Left Me.. Hu Hu Hu Hu

And I Can't Change This
I Can Never Take It Back
But Now I Can't Change Your Mind
(you Left Me)
And I Can't This
I Can Never Take This Back
But Now I Can't Change Your Mind
Can't Change Your Mind
(you Left Me)
Can't Change You Mind
(you Left Me)
(you Left Me)
(you Left Me)
(you Left Me)

Go Away
Make It Go Away
Please.

its late now
TILL next time XD.

2009-09-26T14:51:00.000+08:00

one more week.

precious week!

i will miss my friends in class

i will miss all the gays in our class.

not that i am gay.

but it is just funny to have them around.

well it wont be a goodbye.

it will be a see you next time

wish everyone good luck for n level's.

ok i have no idea what to say ready.

i had lots i wanna say but i can't think of what i wanted to say.

see ya

tagg my blog!

2009-09-18T22:11:00.000+08:00

helooo!

Yea 1 more day of fasting

and the next day is hari raya.

so fast 1 month has past.

and which means it is closer to n levels

and also closer to grad day for us.

art lesson.

i played jam legend.

-_-

that dodo keep disturbing me.

and yea after that we had pe lesson

and WOAH it was fun

i can say that it was one of the best games i have played in my 4 years of pe.

funny things happend like.

swigging the bat and not hitting the ball.

running to the first base and pushing the person guarding it.

hitting the bat and the bat swing to someones leg.

and many more.

ouh and during pe lesson mr heng gave me a few of my picture

the one where you take to put in your ezlink or ic.

then i hao zhan asked me for one.

cause you know he likes to gay with me

i said no.

then i say haiya i give you one you stop gaying with me

lol

he was soo happy.

what the heck is wrong with the world nowdays.

2009-09-16T21:48:00.001+08:00

When she walked upon the water like an angel

I was taken over by the sights and the sounds

From above coming down there was love

We were happier than ever

It was so good me and her together

We were two of a kind

We were both of the same mind

Lovin' don't get any better than this

When your heart's on the line

Wouldn't it take a lot to let you go

We've been living, loving like two parts of a whole

Two unbreakable souls

We both talked about a lot of things we don't usually share

All in good time, we would both become blinded by love

But we didn't mind it all, in fact, we came to fall

More deeply into what it was that we knew we could do

Chorus

We've been living, loving like two parts of a whole

We're unbreakable

Lovin' don't get any better than this

When your heart's on the line

Wouldn't it take a lot to let you go

Living, loving like two parts of a whole

Two unbreakable

Lovin' don't get any better than this

When your heart's on the line

Chorus

When she walked upon the water like an angel

I was taken over by the sights and the sounds

i like! this song.

i played this song on jam legend and ever since then i was searching everywhere for it.

i finally got to download it today.

happy!

however i wanna hear more of their songs and download them.

and today i was playing it on jam legend again

ahaha i played legendary tap

damn the most i got was 98%

i wish one day i could get 100%.

2009-09-14T17:48:00.000+08:00

hais!

sucky sucky day.

my finger was still bleeding this morning when i replaced my plaster.

so i replaced it and elfi told me not to put the plaster so tight.

so i did not and went to parade square for flag raising.

next thing i knew was that blood was flowing out of the plaster.

one part of my pants was stained by it.-_-.

there was alot of blood.

glad that i bought one whole pack of plasters that morning.

and lucky ren jun had tissue.

rushed to class to get a plaster.

oh well

glad that now it is not bleeding anymore.

miracle!

can see the cut clearly.

who wants to take a pic of it for me.

my phone can't take,no idea why.

ok,i am off to put on a plaster.so that i dont accidentally press a key with that finger.

ouch!

2009-09-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

BYEBYE BAM BAM!

rest in peace.

='(.

sad.

my first hamster i had died.

my 15th birthday present from chingmay.

and what is worst is that.

i cut my finger while cutting NUTS.

deep cut!.

ouch right.

HAIS.

it kept on bleeding.

i wish i could bleed to death.

even if i take out the plaster i put on my finger now.

it will still bleed.

come on!

just bleed till i have no more blood left to keep my heart pumping.

-_-"

2009-09-09T21:55:00.002+08:00

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways

Yeah ways hard to swallow

Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

Hey!

i am so happy that english and malay n level papers are over.

3 more subject to concentrate on.

i find that this week and last week is just horrible.

fun is fun but still suckky.

can somebody tell me why i so emo theese days

really you tell me
because i have no idea why too.

someone take me away

far far away from all theese.

i guess i need that special someone if not i am lost always.

2009-08-26T17:48:00.000+08:00

harlooo!

i love the weather today

YEA raining!

but i hate today too.

lol

i was caught for long hair FOR the FIRST time.

and

i had to get it cut.

almost all the boy's in the class also kena.

it's horrible to me.

ouh!

YEA i have officially step down.
no more councillor.
i feel so free!

anyways i still feel damn confused
i am always confused but i want it
if i get it
i will treasure it for sure

and also
so scared of the future
should i really be a chief or am i destined to be something else

2009-08-23T16:03:00.001+08:00

hey

just got our class photo on friday

and also council 6th exco's photo

i like it.

perfect

yah anyways this weekend has been stupid for me

that feeling is back
it gives me headache just thinging about it

and

i am damn bored
when i say damn bored
i really mean
DAMN BORED

and
worst of all

the fasting month has just arrive

i don't wanna fast
i am a big man and i need to eat!
lol
-_-"

2009-08-20T15:54:00.000+08:00

hey

got back all my result's

except cpa one paper

anyway's glad to say that i did not fail any

but sad that i only got just pass for my maths

i can say that i get at least 60% in almost every subject

for thoose who did not really do well for prelim's

it's ok

we still have time to get better results

ok i am gonna sleep

theese few day's very tired.

2009-08-18T19:57:00.000+08:00

hooray!

prelim's are over!

haiz life seriously sucks

having exams and stuff

and the worst part is that having family that anyhow scold

anyways

1 month anni for not talking to my mom

and i think my mom's birthday is tmr.

don't bother

she want's to be a lousy mother as what she said

then i am gonna be a lousy son

my theory is as simple as that

i can't wait to grow up and move out from this house of stupid rules

AND

BOOHOO!

n level's are COMING

GASP

story of how my best friend went to my house

2009-08-17T17:27:00.006+08:00

KIDS!

Today i am gonna tell you a story of how my best friend went to my house

well it started this way

we had our prelim's

and finished at 9.15

my best friend,donna decided to go to my house

and so we went to 7-11 cause i wanted to buy WATER

and she bought sui mai

on the way to the mrt

donna got thirsty and we walk backwards

and back to the mama shop behind school

and then we proceed on to go my house

which was a very very long journey

it is actually 45 min journey

and for donna there is a 15 min walk

and that make's 1 hr to get to my house

we were downstairs and took the lift p to the 3rd floor

i open my bag

to take out my keys

and apparently

i did not find my keys at the place where i should have left my keys in

HeH!

opps!

anyways

no one was at home and yea,we cold not go in.

we reste for awhile cause donna was tired

and then we went to the mama shop cause donna was thristy

in the end we decided to go ion

SINCE we have never gone there

and we went back to the bus stop which was another 15 min

we reached ion and first thing we did was to see the toilet

freakin awesome.lol

and then we went to burger king and ate there.

then we went muji the rip off!

and then we took a very long time to get to taka cause we could not find the exit

we went to kinokuniya to find donna a comic book

and then went to douby ghaut

wait for donna to take the train to punggol

then i went home.

lesson learnt

NEVER go to someone's house unless that person has the house keys

lol

and that is my story

i had a good time though.HEHE

and to add on!

thanks for the belated birthday present

wah how many months

lol

but nvm

it is much nicer then my other two figuring's anyways

even though it looks HOMO.

2009-08-14T21:30:00.002+08:00

hohoho

ALMOST done with prelims.

have 2 more freakin papers and i can party for a little while before maybe dying

ok lar

prelims wasn't as hard as i thought it was.

BUT i am not saying that it is easy though

i dont think i would F_ _ l

but i dont think i would P _ _ s too

but oh well

paper's left are

MATHS(doomsday)i think

AND

mother tongue

wish me luck!XD

ANYWAYS

i have been super busy watching lots of funny tv show's on youtube that i have never seen before

>hope and faith

>how i met your mother

and more

really funny shows.

even though i got bored with how i met your mother justnow.
it is still a funny show to watch.
and i will continue to watch them tmr

Ви подивилися красиві і сьогодні

2009-08-09T16:21:00.005+08:00

hey peps.

it's national day

and i am sepdning my national day all alone at home

how lonely

but i love it

i can blast music which i love to do so much

and i can study without any interruption

and yes i have been studying

almost the whole day yesterday was spent stuyding

anyways

i wanna reflect on this week

well i have been moody i have no idea why

seriously i can't take it anymore

gosh

this is life and it really does sucks

well i really hope that this last minute studying will benifit me

at least i hope i pass all my papers

good luck to me and to my friends.

Sie sind in meinem Kopf und wollen nicht, dass sich aus

2009-08-08T14:20:00.000+08:00

yesterday

went to get my merit award

went to school and at 7.05 we went to the hall.

yea,we had to sit there till the whole school came to the hall and until the whole concert finish.

me and elfi went to the gallery after we took our award.

it was so hot below and on top

the concert was ok i guess.

some parts of the acting was just lame.

the choir song's even though i don't have never remember hearing them

it was ok.

the whole class stand at the front (railing there)

after that went to jy house

then

after that went to mac.

me,donna,juit ying and jun hui

erm.it was totally cworded with people.

damn noisy

and then after that went home

i was so tired.

i slept for 1 hr ah.

but then i was still tired

theese few day's i am really tired

i wonder why i am sooo tired.

maybe i am just stress.

i dont know.=(

2009-08-07T15:12:00.000+08:00

hais.

scared and confuse.

scared of prelims and n's.

people say i can do it one

I MYSELF say that i can't do it

scary.

yea i am confuse too.

and there is a problem wif my freakin internet.=(.

facebook got probelm loading.

blogger had infection problem yesterday.

but glad today dont have.

and now

plurk cannot go in.

i hate being scared and confuse.

2009-08-05T21:38:00.000+08:00

i used to love life

used to think that with this life i have.

i can try to be the best

and try to be good to everyone

i know i am not perfect at all

but why

why must all this happend

NOW i think

life suxs

bored of it

but i wont think of doing something stupid to myself

cause there is at least someone there that is worth being with

that's what is keeping me here.

2009-07-29T16:42:00.000+08:00

heya!

i have no more sore throat

but ms teo has sore throat

lols

i am feeling better now.

even though i still have the feeling of getting sick

you know

when you are sick

you feel weak

yea i feel weak

ahaha thoose who are sick

rest well man

at least i still had the strength to go school though

ahahahaha

i asked mr heng weather he knew what a punnani is

he said he does not know

but i think he does

funny lar

i am eating prawn crackers again

HOT and spicy

really damn hot and spicy

2009-07-27T16:24:00.000+08:00

i am getting sick.

the weather was cold and great

but not that great as i caught a cold

then now sore throat and neck pain

next step is high fever

then tmr no go school.

hope not anyways

2009-07-25T09:39:00.001+08:00

hey.

hais that feeling is growing.

it seriously is growing

and now

i can't seem to do anything

i dont even feel like playing games even when i am bored.

i can't do anything unless you are there.

anyways

donna intro me a band called the perishers

and they are good

you should check it out

i like all of the songs they have

i feel so lost

someone please find me.

2009-07-24T19:21:00.000+08:00

hey!

today was my malay GCE N Level oral exam

and we had to go to serangoon garden sec to take it

THE world of mats and minah

and it sucks

i think i did not do my best in the oral

it was stupid

one chinese guy who was in the same waiting room with us

came to me when we were called

and he told me

EH boy tell your friend not to stare stare at me

lawls

wah ah beng

hahaha

let's say his size big

and he is the centre of attraction

who wont look at him man

2009-07-23T18:19:00.000+08:00

life goes on.

as the day goes by .

it is closer to n levels

i'll graduate soon

THEN

i wont have to see you ever again

i never have to care what you do

i dont need you to care for me

cause you are no longer my friend

NOW

i really know who my most true friend is

and

my true friend is the one that i would care for

2009-07-22T21:30:00.001+08:00

_|_

2009-07-21T20:46:00.000+08:00

hey peps.

there was a problem with blogger jusntow.

but i went to check on the problem at google.

so YEA now i can blog.

today was a scary day for me.

ahaha

we had height and weight taking today.

while waiting for my turn.

i was worried that i would be overweight and get back into that turf club.

well,i am glad that i did not get it.

the last time i check my weight,was 3 weeks ago.

and i was more then 75kg.

now i am 73kg.

what a dif.

Today i got mixed up.

ahahaha i may be wrong in the mass and weight stuff.

BUT that math question.

I WAS CORRECT.

MUAHAHA.

and yea maths was fun today.

but throw away the teacher.

anyways.

i can live without you being my friend.

i have no idea what i ever did to you.

but just too bad.

YOU,your attitude change.

and you can hate me for saying this on a blog.

but i dont give a shit.

2009-07-19T12:28:00.003+08:00

lols.

i was asked to post this picture.

have no idea why but oh well.

post for fun

my sticky partner!

anyways i am gonna go my grandma house later.

i think.

i dont want to.but have to.

I WANT TO DO MY SCIENCE HOMEWORK.

but i realised that i did not brought it home.

and now i am lazy to do anything.

always and can't stop thinking of you

2009-07-18T13:22:00.001+08:00

i forgot to say that.

juit ying you better run.

cause donna is gonna ill you too.

cause your bf killed her bf.

snape kill dumbeldore.

damn it

2009-07-18T12:53:00.002+08:00

hello earhtling who come and visit my blog.

yesterday me and a few of my friend went to watch harry potter.

well to me it was ok.

but i am dissapointed though.

and i am gonna die.

so please hope this is not my last post.

cause the small ver of lady gaga is gonna kill me

heh somehow the lady gaga spec's make me look like that housefly.and i call myself lady hariz in that picture

super sticky partners

super donut and superhariz.

I WAS OWNED.

dammit.

overall.let's say i had fun.

photo credit's to kevin.

nice photo's man.

love it.

2009-07-16T19:56:00.002+08:00

hey

yea i know i haven't post for days.

have been plurking and not really studying.

die loo.

only left how many more days till prelims.

AND then n level's.

well life in school,as usual has not been the same.

but i am still having fun even without those who i used to want to have fun with.

well basically now i dont wanna have anything to do with that who i use to call best friend.

i myself can't believe i called her my best friend once before.

but turn's out she is not the type of best friend i am looking for.

anyways.sherrie dreamt that she was in usa.

that's what bianca told me.

and if sherrie is in the canteen during recess.

and if she see's me,she will stare at me.

AHAHA so funneh.

today went mac,i thought can use new ez-link card to buy liao.

turns out.cannot.

diaoz.

btw thanks donna for sharing your mc wings.

ahahaha i know if i did not take you would not friend me.

ahahaha that is what you will always say.

anyways i am off to watch okto.

CAN't WAIT to WATCH HARRY POTTER TMR.

WOO

2009-07-12T22:24:00.002+08:00

HEY!!

had a rough saturday.

EWW.hates that bitch in the house.

i seriously will run one day.

i WILL grant your wish.just wait for it.

anyways no matter what i am glad i have theese two.

MY BEST FRIEND.

XD.

i wonder what i will do without you both.=(

heh.at the same time i know that i will die posting theese two candid photo's of them

hahaha prepare to die hariz.

2009-07-10T17:48:00.002+08:00

hey.

i am feeling sad for a reason.

and that reason is that i have so little time left with my friend's in school

i wonder weather i will end p not talking to them.

like how i dont talk to my primary school friends.

maybe one in a while but a very slim chance that i take to them.

even now,i dont talk much anymore.

today was the first n level exam.

and it's oral.

soon you know it.

i'll be moving foward to ite and finding new friends

i dont want to.

i want to stay and see my best friends everyday.

i dont know why i am writing this and like so emotional.

but i am tearing while typing thees down.

my eye's might have turned red.

at the same time.

i am scared for my n level's

i am scared that i wont have good result's

i am scared of moving on and do what i want.

scared of not being successful

i dont even know weather i have scored in my oral today.

i dont think i got good marks for it.

but one thing that i know is.

it was fun being the last one.

get to disturb everybody who is reading the passage outside.

aha,what the teacher said when t0 donna when i disturb her was funny.

and the way that donna told me was even more funny.

the examiner were friendly though and i think i only dd well for my conversation

i talked about my incident at home where my kitchen caught fire.

heee.

2009-07-08T17:14:00.002+08:00

haizz.

let's say.
getting scolded with no leader position by mr lew or mr heng is nothing.
being scolded by a dm WITH an exco position in the student council suxs big time.

just because some fools can't keep their butt stuck to the chairs.

you see, this is what i mean by getting me into trouble when i did not even do anything.

but it's ok i pledge to be a leader and that's what i'll be.

i wont let the dm scold me again.

never.

too bad for me.

i deserved it dont i??

well im sorry that my self confidence is not there anymore.

thanks to my classmate.

2009-07-07T20:05:00.002+08:00

Maybe I've been the problem, maybe I'm the one to blameBut even when I turn it off and blame myself, the outcome feels the sameI've been thinkin maybe I've been partly cloudy, maybe I'm the chance of rainMaybe I'm overcast, and maybe all my lucks washed down the drain

[pre-chorus]

I've been thinking 'bout everyone, everyone you look so lonely

[chorus]

But when I look at the stars,when I look at the stars,when I look at the stars I see someone elseWhen I look at the stars,the stars, I feel like myself

[verse 2]

Stars lookin at our planet watching entropy and painAnd maybe start to wonder how the chaos in our lives could pass as saneI've been thinking bout the meaning of resistance, of a hope beyond my ownAnd suddenly the infinite and penitent begin to look like home

[pre-chorus]

I've been thinking bout everyone, everyone you look so empty

[chorus]

But when I look at the stars,when I look at the stars,when I look at the stars I see someone elseWhen I look at the stars,the stars, I feel like myself

[bridge]

everyone, everyone we feel so lonelyeveryone, yeah everyone we feel so empty

[chorus]

When I look at the stars,when I look at the stars,when I look at the stars I feel like myselfWhen I look at the stars, the starsI see someone...

heyy.today school sux.

basically every school day sux lar.

anyway.

i wanna say that i might not be the most perfect person.

i mean i dont do thing right all the time.

i can't even do a simple thing right.

maybe there are people who is much more perfect better then me.

BUT i still have feelings.

it's too late to regret.

i won't turn back.

再見,tot ziens,au revoir,Auf Wiedersehen,さようなら,안녕히 가세요,adiós

it's to bad that i suck in everything i do.

fuck myself

2009-07-03T16:57:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel lost.

but sometimes when you are lost.

there are some who finds you.

and there are some who just leave you there like they are invisible

3 more months in zhonghua.

it's ok,i can survive it.

i can survive not talking to some.

cause no matter what i do,it will never be the same

DAMMIT.

2009-06-28T21:33:00.002+08:00

1 month went pass so fast.

i've learnt stuff from what i watched.

and i am not excited to go back to school at all.

never was excited then last time.

well this time around it will not be the same as last time.

i am going to be different.

not gonna let all of that hurt me.

and i dont want to think about them either.

in fact,i wanna run away from it.

so,if i am different please dont wonder why.

i bet,no one is going to see that except one maybe.

but who cares right.

ok, i am going to bed now.

hoping that tmr and the rest of the days after that wold go on fast.

it's like having a nightmare i swear.

a real bad nightmare where everything ends.

2009-06-26T17:55:00.004+08:00

firsty i wanna say is.

rest in peace michael jackson.

king of pop always

='(

i've been watching movie's again at home.

i was going through the movie folder and there were some new movie's my bro dl.

they were boring one's

movie's that i watched a thousand times before.

and movie's that i have no idea about.

soo i watched this movie called:me,myself and irene.

oh yea,it is a nice movie.

i love it.

the actor was jim carrey.

jim carrey is a great actor

ouh man this movie made my last few days of holiday's cool.

2009-06-23T19:09:00.002+08:00

heyy.

last sunday went to my cuz house to help paint her room.

aha,i am so proud of myself.i painted the ceiling all by myself.

now her room ceiling looks FABULOUS.

ahaha,the funny thing was.

when me and my sis went to her house at 3.

she looked like she was gonna commite suacide,cause she did the ceiling and it looks horrible.

yeah,and i made it look better.

anyways her bro and sis are gonna get married next two week and shift house.

and i also helped out in painting their house too.

guess what i have been doing on the weekdays.

watching movies that i used to watch last time.

i just watched toys story 1 & 2

and then i watched home alone 2.

hahahaha.

very funny.

there was this guy who msg me for a job,to help him today.

and i did not see my phone till 4.

what a waste.

i could have earned about$30?

boohoo=(

2009-06-18T23:51:00.002+08:00

hello,happy people out there.

i am glad that other people out there are happy.

i can never be happy anymore.

even if i said i am,i think i am lying to myself.

everything that has happen, has taken all my happiness away.

people seem to be happy without me.

i feel like looser

right,i am a looser typng all theese man on a blog.

what a looser.

i always am and it will never change.

i just wonder sometimes

am i such a bad friend??

if i am,tell me.

i would prefer to be told.

rather then to have someone who pretend's to be my friend.

and in the end i breakdown.

for trying to be a good friend to someone.

2009-06-18T15:28:00.002+08:00

i'm dying.

dying of boredness

well not until i check my drawer near the tv and found 2 good shows to watch.

haha guess what 2 shows they were.

home alone 3 ans george of the jungle.

ahahaha

soo,i watched them justnow.

it's so funny i can watch it again.

anyways holidays are gonna be over soon.

one thing i hope is that holidays get extended

because of swine flu in singapore.

if it is extended,it would be another 2 or one more week of holidays.

YEA.

and haiss i could not really sleep yesterday.

at 1,i was half asleep when my bro came in my room and on the light's and i totally woke up.

-_-so after he left, it took alittle while to sleep though.

but then in the middle of sleeping i woke up because my nose was blocked.

could not really breath properly.

-_-.how great.

and for the june holidays i have been having weird dream's.

very weird dreams.

dreams that have people i care about in it.

or people that i used to care about.

wonder why i have thoose dreams.

2009-06-17T19:13:00.003+08:00

how boring can my holidays be??

gosh.

soo sad that i have been staying at home doing almost nothing.

the best thing that i have done is laying down on my sofa and watch tv.

my lap cannot on.

and if i wanna use my sis laptop i must make sure no one wants to use.

my bro want's to torture me by making me suffer without the lap before he fix the laptop.

well,hope that he does not put in admin when he reformat.

if he does put admin,i wont be able to download anything at all.=(

and also hope that he can back up the files inside the laptop.

2009-06-13T20:33:00.002+08:00

hey.

what a saturday just lazzing around.

well i had to use my sis laptop today.

cause apparently my main laptop i use everyday does not want to startup.

i have no idea whether it is a crash,BUT i really hope not.

cause,all my memories are in there.

most importantly,my SONGS are in there.

=( if i loose them, i will just die.

loosing my thumbdrive last time was terrible enough.

and that was just alittle of my memory.

in the laptop is everything.

gosh,my life is getting suckier and suckier each day.

nothing is right at all.

everythings goes wrong.

what am i suppose to do?='(

2009-06-13T01:23:00.000+08:00

dumbass

2009-06-12T14:47:00.002+08:00

heloo.

have you ever felt like giving up?

i bet you do,cause i have.

well,every morning i wake up because of my bro's alarm.

and his alarm song is

you are loved by josh groban.

if you see my yesterday's post,thoose are the lyrics.

the song is so encouraging.

i love it, i even hear the song before i sleep using my ipod.

and it was set to replay.

the song is just sooo touching.

the 3 words of encouragement

which is

DONT GIVE UP.

it just is heart warming.='(

2009-06-11T10:55:00.002+08:00

Don't give up

It's just the weight of the world

When your heart's heavy

I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up

Because you want to be heard

If silence keeps you

I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood

Well I can hear you

Everybody wants to be loved

Don't give up

Because you are loved

Don't give up

It's just the hurt that you hide

When you're lost inside

I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up

Because you want to burn bright

If darkness blinds you

I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood

Well I can hear you

Everybody wants to be loved

Don't give up

Because you are loved

You are loved

Don't give up

It's just the weight of the world

Don't give up

Every one needs to be heard

You are loved

2009-06-07T14:04:00.002+08:00

heyyy.
went out yesterday.
went to serangoon then after that
went to clarke quay.
and so below are some pics taken.
gort alot more lar,but was asked to post this.
hehe.
anyways yesterday was nice seeing people being thrown up into the sky.
loll.
and nice sitting by the river.
yea that's all. dont wanna eleberate more on yesterday.

me and sticky partner =)

meee!

sticky's fuck face.

dont she look like a hamster?

2009-06-06T00:00:00.002+08:00

hey passerby's.

how is your holidays?

well mine is alrite larss.

not as boring as i thought it would be.

cause,i sort of have been going out for 3 days straight.

went out with jy rachel and peanut butter.

-_- lol all girls,but who cares.

hey i not sexist.muaha.

anyways,yea walk around suppose to have an interview on thursday and friday.

but in the end dont have.knn.

nvm i just saw today newspaper and i saw a flyer distribution adver in classified.

so tmr i am gonna try and call them.

wish me luck that i get the job.

yea,but even though i am having fun rite now.

i still have a little sadness in me.

like?still thinking of my friends.

haiss.

so near but yet so far.

2009-06-03T19:47:00.002+08:00

hey.

i've been looking for a job.

today i went around orchard asking people weather they have any vacancies.

4 hr's of that and i am already tired.

anyways,i am now waiting for carefour to call me.as what they said.

5 days has passed since i send a msg to this ice cream man on my details.

and he just replied me saying.

fri you can cum for interview.

well,not gonna reply him just yet.

haha, i went to build a bear and look for job there again.

except this time no elfi.

hehe,i was asked to write my name and contact number on a list of names.

well i not sure if i will get it.

but if i do i hope i get it fast.

2009-06-01T18:32:00.004+08:00

hey.

first day of the holidays and i already damn bored.

wonder what i am gonna do for the next 29 days.

i wanna job.

i wanna hang out with friends.

i just dont wanna stay at home and get bored

29 days is long when you are not having fun.

i'm begining to stone more nowdays.

seriously find it hard to sleep.

either i am thinking of something or someone.

haiss.

2009-05-31T13:08:00.002+08:00

i such a fucked up person.

with a fucked up life.

i am basically an idiot.

i dont deserve anything.

i am annoying,irritating,stupid.

i am nothing to anybody.

i am invisible.

2009-05-30T18:14:00.002+08:00

how did all this happend??

there were 8 of us.

we were almost perfect.

but then,everything had to end up this waay.

in stead of keeping it that way,and keep it perfect.

it grew smaller and smaller.

why did it had to get lesser and lesser.

why is everything this way.

WHY?????????????

can someone answer me.

=(.

for me,it's really shrinked.

and now,i feel even lonely then before.

i feel like everybody has really just faded away.

everybody that i used to care just start dissapearing.

well i hope not all of them fade away.

if all of them dissapear i am left with nothing.

day's of my life have never been the same.

i've lost my self confidence.

i have more fear.

i have more thought in my head.

i feel more depressed

i dont know how to stand up and have fun anymore.

i am just so bored everyday.

fml seriously!

2009-05-30T13:28:00.002+08:00

Hey.the holidays are finally here.

it's time for me to relax my mind.

but i hate holidays to,because i know that i will be just rotting at home doing nothing.

unless i really have a job.

well i went for the shirt job thing.

and it is a coordinator actually.

i hope i can do this small buisness thing.

but then it is a flexible job,where if i have a deal then i'll get money.

i think this holidays is gonna be boring as hell if i dont get a job.

i think this is just my life.

a boring kind of life.

with just me.

and my computer for one whole month.

2009-05-28T19:18:00.003+08:00

friends come and go.

ture friends stick together

i am glad to say i have or had a few true friends.

but times have changed.

i dont know for what reason.

i have lost some.

i dont know what i can do.

and i dont know what i have done to deserve this.

please someone just tell me what i ever did to be feeling sad about loosing my best friends.

why am i so weak.

my head is full of thoughts.

thoughts that is not healthy for me

but i can't help but to think of it.

no matter what,the thought will come back every single day.

especially when i go to school.

i feel worst.

please,if i have done anything wrong to you all.

I BEG you please tell me and let me know.

especially you,jun hui.

i miss singing alittle piece of heaven with you.

going crazy about kamen rider with you and sy.

now,when i put a finger on you,you kp ready.

you dont talk to me in school.

in fact you ignore me.

dont tell me that what my friend said to me last time is true.

about people using money to buy my friendship.

if you are,then i really dont want it anymore.

2009-05-27T19:16:00.003+08:00

i dont like going to school anymore.

the more it gets boring.

i feel really sad everyday when i go to school.

sometimes i just wonder what it is like having no friends to talk to at school.

well,i dont have to wonder anymore.

cause that's what happend to me in school.

i can't wait to get to another school and find new friends.

and when i do,i make sure i find true friends.

but when i do, i wont foget about my true friends in zhonghua secondary school.

never will.i give you my word

i would not want my future friends to need my help.

but dont repay with care and consern.

that's the least that they can do.

but sometimes they go over.

2009-05-26T19:53:00.003+08:00

i am so sian of everything man.
i just wanna say that most of the time when i am in school.
or out with my friends.
i feel either left out because i dont get a single thing they are saying.
when they talk in chinese,nvm it is ok.
but when i ask what they are saying,they say nothing or nothing much.
it is so fustrating to be out with someone and that person talks another lang.
i just hate always having ??????? up my head.
OH AND i feel that one or two of them hate me for some reason.
and sometime's it is boring because sometimes.

they sort of dont even care about me.
they dont ask about other people's opinion sometimes and just go for it.
and well when i say something people dont listen.
mainly i feel invissible sometimes.

i wanna thank donna for always being there to hear my complains everyday.

and juit ying sometimes and sy.

i appricate it

but then again complaining to you all is useless.

cause i think it is just the same as talking behind their back.

well,for jun hui i thank you that when i dont have the money,you give it to me.

but then i find that your attitude has changed.
and i dont think that i really like it.
i feel that you are not who you are anymore.
yea i know that you have bad new about your father that he might get,ahem.
but then you cant just do this to your friends.
you know, i would rather you let me go home late and get nag,then you give me the money to go home early.
cause i dont know weather the money you give is sincere or not.
and if it is.i dont think i want your money.
i would rather have want the friendship then the money.

thanks but no thanks.friendship is more important then money.

kar leong, sometimes you talk just too much.

it makes me just wanna pull out every single hair on my head.

but of course i wont.

and sometimes when you talk,you do not think.

and sometimes whatever you talk does not make sense.

si ying, i not sure what to write.

cause sometimes you care.

but sometimes you dont.

i mean,for me you are considered my best friend since sec 1.

and for a friend who i consider a best friend,it is just kind of sad.

this post of mine is not to hurt anybody.

it is just to tell you all what i really really think about you all.

maybe you guys dont know.

but everyday i think about this and it is just not good for me.

everynight i cannot sleep properly.

thinking of why everything end up like this.

2009-05-24T21:52:00.003+08:00

the hols are coming.
time to rest abit and forget getting stressed.
just one thing that i am sad of.
I WANNA WORK.
but i dont think there is any job for june holiday.
but oh well i will just keep on searching on the net.
but if i really dont get one,then just too bad lor.=(

2009-05-20T18:32:00.001+08:00

lets just say!
this song has been realting to my life ever since i heared it.
and i love it.
but i hate my life.shit

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

2009-05-20T17:49:00.003+08:00

CURRENTLY BLASTING HUMAN by the killers.

to tell you,it is fun to blast it with big speakers.

and i dont have to worry about anything else except to hear my own music that is being blasted.

especially after a whole day of school and a half an hour of torturing religious class.

it really helps you to take awaya all thoose stess.

and all the shit thought that you have.

SHIT.

anyways,today,got back exam results.

i can say that i am happy that i passed all my subjects.

but,i did not do very well.

i know i must be greatfull to pass all.

but for me,the next step is to get at least few b's for prelims.

and try to get a's for n's.

i hope i can do it.

and yeah not forgeting the rest.

thoose who failed any subjects.

IT'S OK,not the end of the world yet.

study harder and strive with me.

let's strive together at least.

and for the once who is gonna get a vr in the report book.

HEHE,try not to get sick during exam anymore.lol.

k bye

2009-05-19T17:09:00.003+08:00

MUAHAHA.

took a which celebrity has the same bith date as me.

ans the results are

Billy Joel , Pierre Bouvier , Rosario Dawson , Steve Yzerman , Tony Gwynn , Candice Bergen , James L. Brooks , Albert Finney , Glenda Jackson , Mike Wallace , Howard Carter , John Brown.

i have no idea who they are.

BUT i know who pierre bouvier is.

WOOOOOO.SIMPLE PLAN.

cannot believ my eyes.=).

now i should really look forward to my next birthday and soo on.

lols

2009-05-19T14:45:00.002+08:00

ahhh holiday .

no school!!!

it is fun at the same time boring.

boring because im not going out and staying at home again.

but oh well,so far i am not bored.

i just finished watching a movie.

wont say what movie.

but it is nice.

well,i hope there are more things to enertain me.

and hope i dont get bored.

taking this opportunity to rest my brain and not think so much.

cause yesterday i felt like shit.

shit life though.

ciao.

2009-05-18T18:17:00.003+08:00

i really hate my damn life.

everything i do at home is wrong.nothing is right.

i dont go down and buy things you ask me to.

you get angry like as if i murdered someone.

well,now i really feel like killing someone.

but then again,not worth it.

this is bullshit.

but just too bad i am brought up to a family who do not appreciate me.

it's not my fault that i am lazy to go down and buy food.

cause you are also lazy to get your ass up and cook for dinner.

your excuse:it's late to cook.

again,BULLSHIT.

2009-05-15T20:19:00.003+08:00

lol.donna and her you found me craps.
funny,but i am kinda sick of it.HAH.
that's how she entertain her self.
it sound like this.
YOU LOST ME YOU LOST ME.
FLYING ON THE FLOOR.
lol,does not really makes sense.
but oh well.

donna went to my house today after oral.
hahas the 4th person to ever come my house.
who will be the 5ht person.
who wants to be the 5th person???
but then if my house messy dont blame me.
yea played with my hamster.donna played the keyboard,which i think she had fun.
LOL,i dont know.
SHE CORRUPTED MY LAPTOP BY READING SLASH WITH IT.
yea,we webcam with juit ying.
after that,i went to send donna home.
all the way to her lrt.
and then i went burger king eat my lunch.
alone =(.
then i went home and reached at 4+?

went home and chat and webcam with juit ying.
tested juit ying some science.
and she talked sick again.

but hey,my day today was fun,even though i did not follow sy,jh and kl to ecp.
i just did not want to go for a reason,and only 2 knows it.
okk,i am gonna eat my dinner.
till next time,finding the 5th person to come my house.

2009-05-13T19:46:00.004+08:00

exam exam.

have been studying,but hmm.

maybe my mom does not see me doing that.

and she complain,she just did.

exam or no exam also the same,never study.

might as well dont go to school.

isn't going to school for the past 16 years of my life studying??

HEY OPEN YOUR EYES.B

dont believe??just too bad then.

i studied for my maths yesterday night,YOU DID NOT SEE.

anyways,what is there to study for malay??

nothing at all.

anyways,today went to mac in the morning.

had maths after recess,so go school at 9+?

WENT TO STUDY.

maths was hard but not that bad.

i could do most of the question.

the only thing i scared is that i make careless mistake and got the ans wrong.

dont say i did not do when you did not see.

2009-05-10T23:18:00.001+08:00

finding friend's is hard.
but when you think you have the right friends.
treasure them.
dont take them for granted.
if you do,there will be hate among each other.

2009-05-10T13:28:00.003+08:00

i am finally 16.

YEAnow i can watch nc 16 movies.

play pool without worring

it's good to be one year older,which means i have to be one year more matured.

sian,lol.

ok,yea happy birthday to me.

thanks to thoose who wished me happy birthday.

appreciated it alot.

lol,present are still acceptable.

went jb to eat with my family yesterday to celebrate my birthday.

my sis bought me a watch that cannot be used at night,because there is no light.

but oh well,better then nothing.

i got another 3/4 pants.

and adidas perfume.

ok.

thats all i am blogging about my birthday.

TATA

2009-05-08T18:16:00.002+08:00

haiyo!!next week exam ler.

today's lesson in school was damn usefull,especially science.

and dodo bird had her bimbo mode again.

LOLL.

okays,anyways after school went to juit ying housee.

dodo,dont know doing what inside jy room.maybe wacthing ehem

then jy bathe so long and change.

me jh and kl,was watching this very funny chinese show.

got malay actor suhaimi yusof inside too.

the one who acted as sargent dolah in police and thief.

yea,so it was a funny show,except that when there was a fire,the fire looked fake.

so we took 58 at the bus stop.

but we went 7-11 first.

then i suddenly said:I FUCK YOU IN THE BUTT.lol

and then dodo said:huh??you kena fucked in the butt??

then i laugh and she said i am proud of my corruptedness.

HEHEHEHE.lol

skipping the part of waiting for the bus,cause it was fck

ok,so took the bus and mrt to dhoby,with jy.

then as usual i took 190,but with jy and company.

they got off at far east and i got off at where i usually get off.

YEA ciao for now.

TOMMOROW IS THE DAY =).

muahahahahahahaha

2009-05-07T17:31:00.002+08:00

happy birthday JUNE JIA HUI HUI.(junhui)

dont forget that you have to look one year older.

heh.

Today,my birthday too,like real.lols

i also got a birthday wish

from yihan.my obs friend =).

hahaha,i have 2 birthday's cool anot.

hehe,mark my birthday properly,dont next year you wish me on the 7th again.

but anyways,thank you so muchh.

today woke up damn early and took bus to school -_-".

tired,was about to sleep in ew's lesson.

ok tata.

2009-05-05T18:38:00.002+08:00

YEA.as ya know.

i got an ipod for my advanced birthday present.

i bought a black colour ipod,but i wanted a purple which that shop did not have.__

so it was also a good thing,as i wanted to protect my ipod with a screen protector.

i bought a purple case to make it purple too,and it came with a screen protector.

and i saw a purple 8gb ipod nano in the shop.

LIKE WHAT THE HELLLL..

when you see my face,hope it gives you HELLLLL.

MUAHAHA.

yea,went to watch X-MEN today.

so random and sudden.

went to plaza sing and buy some stuff

while eating someone suggested to watch x-men.

so we quickly eat and went up to check the time.

we saw the time at 11.45.the movie starts at 11.55

SOO,we went to buy the ticket straight and went into the theatre.

LOL.

yea,enjoyed myself today,after a few days of not going out.

and i am broke again,BUT nvm i bought what i wanted.=)

2009-05-04T13:27:00.002+08:00

you might think i am happy getting what i wanted,and that is an ipod.

but thinking of it,i am not as happy as i thought i was.

what makes me happy is my friends.

but then again sometimes i am not happy.

the friends i have,are not the same as thoose that i had last time.

everything changed so fast.

why must things go wrong??

:'(

2009-05-01T21:30:00.002+08:00

why is my life so boring??

why cant i have a happy life.

always having fun.

fucked up life._l_

2009-05-01T21:17:00.002+08:00

how about a boring day??

today was another of my worst day of my life.

holiday's are suppose to be fun.

but oh well,i spent the whole day at home.

studying maths.

suckky.had no calculator so all i did was read the example and try to understand.

went online,no one to talk to.

in fact i did not talk to anyone except cymon.

and so,i was damn bored.

at home,stare at the computer,stare at my maths book.

siann.i hope something went into my brain at least.

2009-04-30T22:54:00.002+08:00

i really do hope that everything changes.

i really want everybody to be happy.

i want all my friend's to trust each other.

no secrets.

then we wont have so much to think about.

used to go mac together and have fun.

now,it get's lesser and lesser people there.

either someone is not happy of something.

or just feel sad about something.

lets have peace man.

true friends is about trust.

caring about each other.

friend stand by each other.

thats what friend's are for.

comfort each other.

2009-04-29T20:16:00.002+08:00

wednesday is torturing

damn toturing.

how i wish my wednesday was like before.

anyways theese days have never been the same as before.

it really changed alot.

i wish it was all like before.

i wish all my friends trst me.

i wish that everybody trust me.

have i broken any trust from anyone of you that you do not trust me??

2009-04-28T16:15:00.001+08:00

my life is full of misery.
my life is full of pain.
my life is full of hurt.
my life is full of everything bad.
everything that makes me feel sad.
everything that i hate.
i just feel like no one understand's me.
=(
stressed out.
sad.
hurt.
and my life suxs.